Susnot

Wednesday night is ABC night.

Last night I watched Alias and Lost.

Alias was... sad. And actually semi predictable. But it was still good. But I don't know that I liked it. I felt really disappointed honestly. And confused.

I didn't really pay that much attention to Lost quite frankly because it was Ana Lucia centric and although I sympathized with her character a little for the whole being shot deal... I didn't like her much. So I didn't pay attention and was out of the room most of the time. But boy am I glad I paid attention to the last fifteen minutes!

Today, I read that Commander in Chief has been shelved for May and will air in June but not likely return next season.

There is something interesting about the television viewing public. I can't put my finger on it. Why is it that a show like Ghost Whisperer would be so wildly successful and a show about a female president who cleverly outwits her opponents not be so interesting to people?

Is it because that most Americans have a problem with watching a woman who is truly strong and successful with little to no flaws? I don't know. I just don't get why the show wasn't more popular. I found it inspiring and very interesting. But perhaps she was too perfect - and everyone men and women alike - seem to have problems with people who are perfect.

I remember in junior high my friends plotted together to do something to embarass me. They created a fake secret admirer who would leave me notes during lunch and I would read this notes, feeling flattered but a little disturbed and confused. This went on for.. probably just a couple of weeks... when one of my friends feeling guilty fessed up that they had been out to embarass me because they were jealous that I was so smart and good at school. And these were my good friends who did it to me. Not some strangers.

I remember feeling so disillusioned and broken hearted that they did that to me. I believe they all apologized to me. But I never trusted any of them again. I forgot about that instant. But I remembered it with clarity around my 10 year reunion. It was one of the reasons why I decided not to go.

From that experience I learned that being female and smart although good for you, would attract jealousy and envy from others. And I think unfortunately, that experience taught me to reign myself in. To want to avoid the spotlight and stay in the shadows.

I think for reasons like that - a show like Commander in Chief is not more popular. Only women who are strong would appreciate a show like that. But I think society has shown that most American women cannot handle seeing a woman who has it all be capable of keeping it all.

posted by Susnot @ 7:50 AM