Susnot

Where do people get married?

I realize that's not really supposed to be a hard question. But when it comes to one's own wedding. It's a very hard question! I have been pulled in all sorts of directions every which way trying to decide what sort of wedding I would like and where.

This is all before E has managed to purchase my engagement ring - although it's not a matter of whether we get married or whether the ring is there at all. It's a matter of me making up my mind and deciding where and how we are going to get married.

So it's made me wonder repeatedly, where do people get married? How do they decide?

I have no dreams about a fantasy wedding. I have no images of chiffon and candles with white rosebuds and blah blah blah. I don't. In fact I think I've started to get hives and this definite stress pain in my neck with the thought of having to plan a wedding. I've seen my cousins and friends and what it did to them. I will be the first to stand up and say that is not what I want. I don't want a big wedding. I don't really want a reception and quite frankly the idea of having a whole day where everyone's focus of attention is on me is just.... not so appealing to me. I would not enjoy having everyone staring at me and trying to get me to kiss E every five minutes. Although I will admit I really get a kick out of doing that to other people.

I just don't want a ceremony and reception deal. I really really don't.

Am I the only bride in the world who feels this way? I mean I'm so excited to get married to E. He is one of the best things to ever come into my life and I feel so excited and lucky and can't wait to be married. But the wedding part. Ugh. I just don't think it's necessary. I'm not looking forward to that at all.

ARGH. I don't know. Heh. Lately we just keep saying we should just not get married because neither of us wants to go through the debaucle of the planning so much and spending so much for what is one day out of the rest of our lives. We'd rather plan for all of our lives. Like saving for a house instead of a wedding.

posted by Susnot @ 2:53 PM